I am...

-a bad student right now...(in the process of finishing a 4 pg. argmentative paper due in 2 hours)


-feeling like I'm stuck in routine, routine, routine....


-feeling like I "am in ministry" (worship leading, small group leading, even group prayer) more than I can ever spend with Him alone


-feeling like I'm an awful friend to some


-a little stressed about $ for Costa Rica


-super EXCITED for Costa Rica


-wishing the sun was out


-MISSING MEXICO and the kids


-feeling super disconnected to my family


-struggeling with self-image


-learning a lot about self-control


-told that I am worship leader again next year

-without a SINGLE fault in the Lord's eyes (reading Colossians)






PHEW! just to name a few :) I guess that's why I haven't written for a while! Things are a bit crazy. I am clinging to Jesus as best I can, but it's been hard lately feeling Him there. I've been realizing why I have fallen into his awful cycle, and here are some lyrics that came into my head yesterday as I was talking to the Lord:


I have put You in a box


I have left You at the door


I have brushed You aside,


neglected and ignored You






And I cannot tell you


How much it pains me to hurt You


And I'm here to say


I want to return


I want to return


to the loving arms of Grace


I'm sorry, my Lord






Well I have to get back to that paper now but wanted to share a bit! The Lord is so good to me. blessings,


suse