So Jesus has this beautiful light filled room in Heaven that has a shelf in it.
This shelf is chalk-full with a stunning array of different vases, each vase being a dream or desire or vision of my heart. He doesn't forget about these vases, which is why the room is always lit with a warmish yellow glow.
He is currently working in the garden outside the room, tending to the vast myriad of flowers, multi-colored, of course. He joyfully and diligently prepares the flowers and bouquet that he yearns to fill the vases with.
The shelf never lingers lonely enough to accumulate dust. The Father brushes it off, beams with pride. An angel visits the room, admiring the vases, which brings Him more glory.
Sometimes I feel that he has forgotten about my many empty vases---but this is far from the truth.
"Hope deferred makes the heart sick, but a longing fulfilled is a tree of life."
{Proberbs 13:12}
The last week or so it has been overwhelming at times to feel such longing, especially to get married and for kids. Sometime it aches in the pit of my stomach. Sometimes I am confused. Frustrated. Bitter. Envious. Impatient.
But lately I have been picturing my shelf, "Lily's Shelf" in the Lord's room where he has not forgotten a single thought of mine.
"How precious to me are your thoughts, O God! How vast is the sum of them!" {Psalm 139:17}
If you see this
Nollie Fe, Liv Sela, Kiam Bréde, Abel Jaem
Nollie, Kiam, Liv and Abel
on my computer screen, you know I have been dreaming about my future younguns! :-)
With that said, I have been enjoying basking in the Presence and Healing of my sweet Jesus. I know I have a long journey ahead of me, but today He wants to just enjoy the day with me! Ahhhh he has sooo much He just wants to bestow on me, let my heart be open to receive it in grace and faith!
Summer is going well. Busy but well. School, tree flagging, Breaking Free (Beth Moore), good friends, weddings and my banjo have been taking up a good chunk of my life.
Here is a little update of my life through pictures (some a little older :-)
The Lord is relentless.
Well, back to procrastinating! :-)
